The next day was the end of EFY. He sat with me during the counselor breakfast, and I wasn’t sure if I was actually going to see him again. After circling through everyone else twice, I said an awkward goodbye and left. I didn’t know if I was going to hear from him or not.
We spent the next two weeks texting, mostly about Harry Potter, and I wondered if he was actually going to hang out with me when he came through. I mean, he texted me constantly throught out the day, he has to like me, right? We made plans for July 22.
He picked me up and we went to Jamba Juice, where he proceedeed to make me drink caffiene and asked if I’d ever told anyone I loved them. He was being really goofy, and I wasn’t so sure if I’d forced him into this or if he really wanted to hang out. I also wasn’t sure if he was considering it a date until he said, “I am going to tell all my friends I took an older girl out.” So charming, right? We went to see Captain America, which we laughed all the way through, and we teased each other the whole night but when he dropped me off and gave me an “awkward hug” (those were his words, not mine), I just wasn’t convinced it was going to happen.
I left the next day for a family vacation to Colorado, and didn’t hear from him THE ENTIRE WEEK. Every time we drove into a town with cell phone service, I would anxiously check my texts and be disappointed. Every time. My family asked about it, and my sister-in-law encouraged me to send him a message on Facebook, just to keep up contact. I was scared, but I eventually convinced myself to go ahead with it (he swears he was going to text me when I got back from vacation... riiiight).
On August 12, he was back in Provo with his friend for a wedding, and we met up at the In-N-Out with Zach and Kendra, and then headed to Costco where I let them use my card to buy Mexican Coke and peanut butter filled pretzels, thanks to some convincing from me. And then we said bye. I was really annoyed and really finished. That was it? He was going to be here all weekend and all I got was a trip to Costco because I had a card? So done. Until later, when we talked online again, of course. I asked him if he was doing anything the next night and he said no, and waited a long time to continue, just to let me squirm. Then he finally asked me if I wanted to do something with him, and of course I accepted. I was way too excited to go out with a boy I had been annoyed with minutes earlier! I laughed at my own mood swing, and then made a secret goal to hold his hand by the end of the night.
He picked me up and he took me to Mo’Betta Steaks, a Hawaiin barbeque place in Salt Lake, where I only ate half my chicken and promised him I wasn’t “one of those girls,” I just really couldn’t finish it. Them he told me we were going go-karting. I was nervous and did not want to go-kart in the least bit, but totally pretended like I was ok with it (sort of, I think he picked up on my hesitation). And then I definitely beat him by like 15 minutes; he was really slow and I was really attractive in my hair net. Ok, I’m lying. Then we went to Bruges Waffles where we had the most amazing waffles and I avoided eye-contact while we chatted. I thought it was the end of the date and that we hadn’t gotten anywhere. I was definitely not going to make my goal. Then, when the conversation was winding down, he said those three fateful words. “Let’s go somewhere.”
He took me to a lookout (which I later found out was nicknamed “Makeout Point,” smooth) where we talked for hours about past relationships, how many people we’ve kissed, etc. Finally we sat down close to each other and he finally grabbed my hand. Goal accomplished! We sat until our bums ached, and finished our conversation in his truck. At around one in the morning, I insisted that he take me back to Kendra’s house to my car. We got back and he walked me to my car, where we awkwardly talked for another hour waiting for neighbors and other stragglers to leave. At this point I totally knew what he was planning, and my brain was running 100 mph. I don’t let just any boy kiss me, but I REALLY like this one. How would I get out of it anyway? Of course I was going to let him. And at around two in the morning, we had our first kiss.
There was no turning back, I completely adored him. We talked on the phone every night, and when I got asked on two dates four days later, I asked him if it was ok that I turned both of them down, and that’s when we finally made it official. Exactly one month later, when I first cried in front of him because I was sad he had to go, he told me he loved me, and I told him I loved him right back. It was only the next weekend when the subject of marriage was brought up.
And we are getting married on June 29, 2012. I love you so much William, more than I ever knew was possible and I can’t wait for that love to just keep growing and growing for all eternity. You are my love, my best friend, my everything. You keep me laughing and smiling, and my heart aches for you when you are away. Every day is so fun and exciting when I wake up and know that I am yours. Thank you for being good to me every second of every day. Thank you for loving me so fiercely and being everything I could ask for. I love you.